Friiiick. i got 4 of out my 5 grades back. 1 A, 1 B, 2 C’s. I’m not complaining, but I don’t understand it. I seemed to spend a lot more time studying and working at better grades, but things just don’t turn out the way I want them to, or the way I expect them to.
In times like these I wish i was a music major (no offense music majors out there), because sometimes it seems so much easier, academically. Studying? Not as much as engineers. I know they practice a lot, and hey – that’s tough – but I think that might be something I could do. I mean I can sing pretty well, so maybe i could do that; I can play piano and violin not badly either. I’m pretty sure i have a good ear, so music comp? All these things look so appealing to me, and day and night when compared with chemical engineering.
The problem is that there’s no time to change majors, even if I wanted to. I’ve taken almost 2 years of classes that are geared towards ChE; switching majors would waste time and the precious money that my parents have invested in me. Yikes. Talk about pressure.
Here’s another problem: commitment. Am I to give up chemical engineering so easily because of a few C’s?
I don’t know why I keep thinking about these things. Yea, it would be great if I had been a music major, but i’m not. Yea, it would have been cool for me to not study chemistry, physics, math, and instead learn about the intricacies of an instrument. I’m not, and so I gotta deal with it and stick to the thing I am in.
I guess that’s what commitment is – even when things are going horribly, no matter how hard you try and how boring it is – you stick to it. It’s easy for people to say that they’re committed to something when everything is perfect and their feelings are intact, happy, and ready to go. But when things suck: “Darn, this iriver sucks, I’m returning it and getting an ipod”, or “hmm, this isn’t what I thought it was, maybe I should change majors” (I’m here), or “Maybe she’s not the one, I better get out of this ASAP”. It may seem like a small thing to return an mp3 player, and it’s not like I necessarily have to “commit” to a piece of plastic and metal that makes noise. However, one thing I do notice about people is that what they do with the little situations, they will likewise do in the more important ones.
If it’s easy for you to give up on something small because it doesn’t satisfy you or you didn’t know what you were getting into, it’ll be easy for you to give up on a marriage, a family, a career, even life itself. What is the difference between the two magnitudues? Nothing but priority. Where will wedraw the line if we accustom ourselves to dropping everything that gives us problems?
I guess one thing I’ve learned from this quarter’s (and frankly, my whole college experience) grades is that I will always have trials and problems to face, even those where I am not at fault. Am I to run away from them like a bunny would from a fat bald guy with a two-barrel shotgun? Hell no.
I gotta stop crying about it, ask the Lord for persistence and patience, and stick it through.
(props if you know what bunny i’m talking about. Shame on you if not.)
