I get sad when I look on facebook and see some of the people I used to talk to that really have “individualized” themselves so thoroughly. In fact, they are so different that based on their new friends, interests and notes that they are hardly recognizeable from the people they used to me.
Don’t get me wrong – it’s a great thing to change and find some sort of personality shell that you feel comfortable in. What makes me sad is what the theme of their lives are.
I read about some people who are so intent on making money and being successful in the future that all of their activities, friends, and free time is devoted to accomplishing that goal. There are others I see that are straight up enjoying their college years, partying it hard and clubbing with their friends.
Is this all they’re living for? I look at my own life and I look drastically different than them. From an outside perspective, I look pretty much like a loser. No clubbing, no listening to ‘cool music’, no hanging out with the cool crowd. Sometimes I envy the people that are just going through life, living day by day. What am I living for, if it’s not to enjoy myself in partying or to find success in the future?
But then I look back at the Cross and I find my reason. I remember why I chose to forsake parties, drinking and Undie Runs. I remember why my future ambitions seem so small in comparison to the pre-meds, pre-business people, and people searching for internships as if their lives depended on it. I remember why I am so different from my friends.
